i am here.
not to blog for anyone.
Just to blog for myself, perhaps.
Just to remind myself every single day.
to not be overshadowed by all these negative thoughts.
day and days passing by. so fast.
time and tide waits for no one. and no one.
It's only myself who is not going to benefit if i still stay like that.
if i still do not improve myself. i am just gonna stay this way forever.
and it sucks. looking at myself like that. slacking each day.
negative personal growth. very bad. terrible. miserable.
Hence, this post is mainly for myself.
i have a diary last time. very very long ago. I am too lazy to write.
U may read this too if you want.
Things for myself to remember.
I always tell people this and that and this and that [macam very good advisor]
but in actual fact, when you yourself is in the situation, u are always, most likely blinded.
cannot see clearly. like even more blinded than people who have lost their eyesight.
so here is just whatever i feel like writing. no rules. no boundaries. no plans.
gonna let it flow wherever it wants to.
Always am so confused with my own fashion taste. I bought so many clothes, i was so happy.
Now i look at my wardrobe, and it seem like there is nothing for me to wear. At all.
I was so moody the other day, wanted to look for something more colourful to brighten me up. What the, all i can see was black and black and grey if not white , green, blue. and black and brown. only left with some colourful ones bought very long ago during uni time.
- crazy. i think i need to get more colourful pieces for work. no more dressing everyday like i can attend the funerals anytime!!
- sometimes, i am so confused. I look at some people who dressed so hard. who seem like they are trying too hard. i wonder myself, why oh why do they have to waste so much time throwing everything on their body making them look even messier than a messy christmas tree. i mean its like they look abit pathetic to me.
- i sometimes do think that the clothes, the outfits, all are just secondary. what is more important is the inside. But In business, they say Packing and Presentation is also Equally Important...
I think Life is a confusing game sometimes... Most of the time, i mean.
[ i have so many to write, but i am already feeling exhausted. will continue soon]
after a tea break perhaps. give me sometime.
