well,

I have a few bad news here.

Not to announce all for sure.

i'm so scared, people getting all kinds of sicknesses, people dying...

it's so unpredictable.

When it wants to come, then it comes right at your face.

Without any notification or whatsoever.

I'm sorry, did not intend to see it. but i just saw it.

it made me feel so scared. so scared that he will leave us one day.

i wanna spend more time with him.

i was so worried when i got to know about his lungs conditions.

i'm so scared. Gong, i promise i will spend more time with you. And popo too..

Next on,

this dancing partner of mine.

He, initially i felt that he came to class just because his cousin pulled him in.

He was not as passionate as his cousin.

slowly, especially towards the exam,

I find that he is slowly liking it , and i can see it from his facial expression when he danced with me.

i could feel that he is starting to like dancing, if not love.

really, from his smile, gesture, body language and all.

i'm sorry i did not go for the competition with you.

it was rather inappropriate for me to join you like that.

but why disappear like that?

i was rather sad to hear that he is stopping due to some personal problems.

really, i enjoyed dancing with him so much,

that i suddenly felt that my dancing life is quite hollow, meaningless now.

secretly hope that u can just come back, once again.

and we will do the dance. the international one.

never felt like going for it so badly, until i got to know that u have stopped.

p.s: i don't know, i really thought i found my dance partner. i seriously am very upset about it. And i dont feel like dancing with anyone for exam, or what. U know.

that kind of chemistry.....

damn. it's so difficult to get it.

and now it's gone..

really, i don't wanna hear your sorry. your very sorry..

My medicines!

Doctor gave me two days MC. YAY! I'm really happy. He's that doctor i saw last Year. He still remember me! And asked any exam this time Haha. So nice to see him again. Yes i will drink more water for sure doctor.. =) oh yeah don't worry it's not H1N1..

Hey

I'm at clinic now. Waiting to see the doctor. I hope the doctor this time is as nice as the last time i was here.. Just met a nice and friendly guy here. Coming here to pay his remaining consultation fees. Well he has recovered i guess hence he's so bubbly. Thanks for making me feeling better even if it's just a little. Yes i will take care of myself.

hi

i'm sick today. :(

it started on tuesday itself, with the sorethroat.

then wednesday the flu is coming, and slight fever in the morning as well.

but i still went to work and smile and talk and walk and do everything as if i am not sick.

i salute to myself :P

well, i have met so many BIG people in the business yesterday.

and had a great talk with someone. very motivating and uplifting.

so i think it's a net gain afterall. ;)

specially thanks to kenneth that i am feeling much better this time. :)

not going for work today..

decided to let my body breathe. let it be healed first.

Good Day Everyone =)

p.s: i dont know why i have this feeling that i have run a thousand miles non-stop

and i really need a break now.

but don't get me wrong.

i am enjoying my job so much now.

so many things to be learned.

the sponge simply just need to take a break now to absorb more things tomorrow,

day after tomorrow, and many many tomorrows...

today,

i am not feeling so happy.

well, i was quite happy. but after receiving a call, i could feel that my entire world is collapsing.

i cannot live without you.

i simply cannot live without you.

i just lost everything.

maybe tomorrow u might see me smile, but that is not the smile that is reflected from my heart.

for my heart is crying.

it is bleeding.

Really. i said Really. I trusted you. I trust you. And will always trust you the most.

Don't feel cheated. Never. because it makes me feeling even more upset.

I'm feeling so lost. so lost in the middle of nowhere.

come save me.

please do something about it.

i cannot, and i do not wanna believe in whatever you just said.

simply because i can't take it.

You are so prescious.

so prescious to me.

now, u are telling me that everything might be the same, but everything might not be the same anymore.

no, i can't.

Just when everything seem to be settling down..

I swear it was only fear.

I swear it was not suspicious mind.

I swear.

I trust you so much.

I hope the Universe will build all these connections back.

As i need them very badly.

i just feel like i'm slowly sinking into a deep deep sea.

Very Dark.

somewhere which i do not know the directions of.

come dive in and save me ok?

it's crazy that i feel like dying.

i have no mood for my work anymore.

I feel like ending all these.

I feel like going back into the past.

And i promise, i will give you my full support. and all the trust i can give.

and i'm really sorry for making you feeling that way.

really.

really.

p.s: i feel like a living corpse now. Like a body without a soul.

对

那天　,我去放风筝了...　风筝飞得高高的,　越来越高,越来越远…　儿时的回忆却似乎越靠越进了…　那天的我，很开心，真的很开心…　微风带来了回忆，时间仿佛停止了转动…　亲爱的曾经路过我的人生的你，我好想你们！！啊………！！　我心中大声的呼喊着你们，　你听见了吗？

YOOOOu HOooooo!!!

it's Friday AGAIN! :D

so damn happy.

for a working person,

the Most happiest day for him/her would be PAY DAY!

the second happiest day would be FRI-DAY! :P

that's what i personally think la. :P

i mean that's what most of us look foward to ma.

during monday, i hope its not monday but its tue/wed/thurs instead so friday comes faster and yeah! our SatuRDAY NIGHT FEVER come and our BEAUTIFUL SUNDAY MORNING comes :P

yeah.

i am extremely happy today.

Guess what. My work, my job i mean is so damn interesting.

i'm -lovin -it -so- much just like how they love MacDonalds :P

ok back to my working life.

i'm lovin each second of it.

Credit Control, of course it really did give me some kind of foundation to understand how things work.

now, Sales.

it's so challenging.

it's so unpredictable.

anything can come at any time of the day!!

i love this feeling.

we
(me and my current boss-the management executive),

we look at datas everyday

(well, it's my third day only haha. the first day he went out and asked me to stay to read the reportssssSS)

we analyse datas everyday(i assume)

we have to set target for the salesmans to reach OUR TARGET.

we have to check the availability of stock, and predict the market demand,

and to see what to order, and HOW much to order.

this is a very important step as the products' lifespan are really short like 5-7 months.

so we can't afford to overstock ourselves.

it's so exciting.

it's so different.

i learn so many from the management executive in just 3, er i mean 2 days.

i have attended an Interview. it was really fun to see how the applicant promote and sell himself.

Also, u get to know so many other things from him if he happened to work in other companies or industries.

Also, my management executive is so damn IMPROMPTU one.

Today is Friday. So i decided to dress semi-formal. to suit the "Casual Friday" Theme like how they always state in Fashion Magazines.

Then my executive told me, :" Today, we are going to a few places"

i was like what! but lucky i brought a purple scarf which looks quite elegant and formal , and my working outfit was 50%50% la. meaning not too informal la.

so we went Shah Alam and did Market Visit!

Two Wholesalers!

was really fun! :D

looking at the products... :)

thank you so much for teaching me so much in such a short period of time :)

i seriously enjoy so much.

but stop asking me whether i find it more interesting or fun in Credit Control Department OR here at your place. Because i guess you know the answer. :P VERY SENSITIVE QUESTION LE!

yes. and my dance exam result is OUT already! :D

thanks DA JIE so much for putting the EXOTIC MAKE UP for me. (and also my hair :P)

She Deserves this Remark from the Examiner! (SUPER LOOK!) :P My Teacher told me the Examiner loves my look. haha. lalala :P

but i thought my makeup was too thick that day...............................hmmmm....

ok yeah about the results u can ask me personally. for those who care :P

oh yes. and thanks tzee yeen dear for the support and also motivation for work(u know what i mean, i keep my promise) ;)

oh yes, so enjoy your Weekend Buddies!! :D

p/s: i have received a few name cards already. BuT BUT BUT i still don't have my own yet. :(

plus plus plus please remind me to buy a name card holder okay.............