Useless me

i wanted to blog so much.

however, time doesn't allow me to do so. =(

for i have one presentation, mid term test, and one assignment due next week!!

am struggling!!

so..
i shall just K.I.S.S* alright ( Keep it Short & Simple)

Well, Darling Xin Ning just sent me a video. just Look at How nicely it was being played.



i am not even 10% of that.

i stopped halfway.

due to insufficient time to practice (college, uni damn alot of assignments)

or maybe just Plain Excuses.

i refused to sit for practical tests last time.

i stopped at Grade 6 theory as the location was too far away from my home.

my parents spent damn alot i am sure, on me regarding the piano fee'ssss....., the PIANO itself, expensive piano books..

and of course, i have wasted time . both mine and my teacher's as

i hate practicing.

that's the bad thing.

i kinda regret now.

should i take up piano classes again? anyone suggest please? thanks..

if not, all money spent in the past would be not worth at all.

i would feel damn sorry.

about my laziness and lack of determinations.

should i continue?

i felt bad.

its like after doing so much,

i have nothing left behind.

my darling xin ning will be sitting for her

GRADE 8 Practical test this thursday if i am not mistaken..

Peer pressure?

no..

maybe just me.

should i continue?

but i seldom touch the piano since i stopped in 2005.

how is my teacher gonna teach me?

from grade 1 again?

=(

terrible me.

how can i not think about my future at that time.

when i was still young and able to absorb faster than Now. i supposed.

how can i not think about how difficult the money come about?

i am such a terrible human being..

damn.

anyone.

help me pls.

i am lost.

should i just waste everydamn thing just like that?

:(

sigh.

My Dearest Piano,

do you still welcome me back? @_@